Ok my boys have attitudes lately... Major attitudes!! *L* Must be a spring thing! But overall we are doing well.... At Dilen's IEP meeting we decided to see how he does with medication first - if he still needs assistance we will get him a 504 plan... I met with his doctor (the same shrink Deven sees) on Friday and we started him on a mood stablizer... Once we have him stablized on the moods we will work in a small amount of Strattera for the ADHD...

Work has been good... I am employee of the quarter and we had our annual ratings - I got an exceptional... All the shredding has been completed - I finished last week and then the shredder died... It threw a nut onto the teeth - dunno what exactly caused it but I am sure that all the staples that SOME ONE had been shredding had something to do with it...

E has been quiet for the most part so this is good... He cut me short on the $$ but overall he's been ok - I'll survive without his little bit of $$ for now but he better get up to date soon or I am gonna flip on him....

The weather has been nice this past week so we have been doing more and more outside... I am trying to get a walk in with Ethen each night to get moving - he loves to be outside... I signed the boys up for the after school program on base starting tomorrow... They will have homework help and plenty of free time to play with other kids and I won't need to worry about Mom having to watch them... It's nice to be able to do it for now - I paid off the KIA so my payments for that now go to the Youth Services! *L* But the boys are happy.... We had week 2 of Karate this weekend and they both did very well - we need to practice atleast once during the week but overall they did very well - I am so proud of them...

Not too much else going on at the moment - I am sure I had other things to say but I am drawing a complete blank... Til next time...

Well karate season is back in gear and we are now committed every Saturday from 9:40-10:40am... Of course it got off to a rocky start this week with Deven who didn't want to go then didn't want to participate and was just generally whiney and driving me nuts!! Sensei Dave took him aside and talked to him for me - whatever he said to Deven he got Deven out on the floor... Deven participated and did well... After class I thanked him and he looked at Deven - told him to look at him and had Deven acknowledge that "we will not be repeating today"... YEAH DAVE!!! Deven loves karate but sometimes needs that extra push...

After karate the boys and I went for a ride to find cheaper gas - 2.73/gal is as good as it gets around here... Then I treated them to chinese buffet for lunch... Last night we went out to Kareoke (sp?) - we didn't sing but the boys got to run around a bit, we had some food and had a nice time socializing... If it weren't for the torrential downpour it would be a nice weekend... Guess being at work today isn't so bad with the rain and boys stuck inside... Poor mom - atleast she has laundry to keep her occupied - Dilen has a little poison ivy and grrrrr we have to wash all his stuff...

I went to dentist Friday afternoon for my new temporary and to have the molds cast for my new bridge... Today my mouth STILL hurts... UGH!! Well it's back to the shredding - I am making lots of progress and hope to be done by tomorrow afternoon... Keep your fingers crossed that the contractor comes to take the last of the boxes to the decinigrator in the morning.... Til next time...

HAPPY EASTER!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ETHEN!!! 

Hmmm I owe a long update AGAIN! *L* Life with three boys can certainly keep you moving!! I took the boys to the egg hunt on Saturday - Deven won first prize for the 8-10 yo group...

Dilen was a bit upset but he's getting over it... Then we went back for the kids carnival and we all had a blast - we won a door prize of Battleship... Boys got their faces painted - Batman

Supposedly Robin mask w/a Punisher on the cheek... Not too much else went on over the weekend - I came to work on Sunday and the boys stayed with my mom and played..

I went to the dentist on Monday - what an experience - the man has NOOO bedside manner and I guess I was a little hysterical but hey when you treat me like crap and have almost no compassion and my anxiety is high to start... But anyway - seems I DO need a new bridge and it's NOT covered under the insurance - HOWEVER they are gonna cut me a price break... A 3 tooth bridge is $2625 plus $60 for initial appt.. When they took my insurance (which they don't anymore) the insurance company gave them 375 and my copay was 575 which is 975 for a bridge cash in their pocket and a 1650 WRITE OFF... This time they are cutting me a break and only charging me 300 per tooth so 900 for the bridge plus 60 for the initial appt... So there goes the little savings I HAD started to build but atleast it's gonna be fixed... I go back on the 1st for a new temporary and to cast new impressions - til then I have the old temporary glued back in and filed down to adjust for my bite...

AND to keep the money flowing out of my pocket this week - I signed the boys up for Pop Warner.. There goes a chunk of cash AND I have to work 2 Sundays during the season too!!! UGH!! But the boys wanted to play - Deven has been asking for years... Practices start in Aug - Deven will be on the Might Mites and Dilen will be playing Flag...

Ethen's birthday is tomorrow so we are gonna go to Walmart for pictures and then the Chinese buffet for dinner... Here's one of him playing the other day - Other then all that it's been a quiet week here... Til next time...

Sooo I have had this temporary bridge in my mouth for almost 3 yrs.. I just didn't have the $525 to spare to get the permanent one out of hock... Today I do - so I called - I needed to call, I have had the money for over 2 months now but just haven't called - then I cracked the temp bridge - argggggg so I called... I got billing - told them I wanted to take care of my bill BUT first is my perm bridge still there - yeap it is but she said things might have shifted and it might not fit she is gonna talk to doc and call me back.... I am praying that things will work out - I don't think/doubt things have shifted - I mean I have been wearing the temporary one all this time to keep things in place... But we shall see - I can't afford anything to go wrong... I am also starting to pay off old bills and clean things up one by one... While it's a good thing the calls make me nervous in the pit of my stomach... Maybe it's the thought of chunks of money going out of my account quickly or just the worry of getting lectured for letting bills go so long but hey what can ya do when you don't have the spare $$$... Til next time...

Well it was a great weekend- the boys and I had a blast at Six Flags on friday.. It was a mad house but we went on some ride and eventually got our passes processed... We stayed to see the fireworks at 10 pm and while they were going off the boys go airbrushed tatoos - couldn't pass up the bargain of 4.50 for any size/color... I am just THE coolest mom! *L* Saturday Dilen got his yellow belt - teacher said his form was very good but he needs to get more serious and less goofy in class... Deven did wonderful at bowling... Karate starts again on the 22nd - Deven is only a high white and Dilen is one step up as a yellow - after this next session they are doing a short 6 week session which Deven will take alone (or Dilen can take for refresher only) so that he can catch up...

E took the boys with a friend on Sunday to Six Flags - they had a very good time and hit a bunch of rides...

E went to doc this past week for a physical and blood test results... Seems his drinking has really started to have an effect on him - liver numbers were over 300 and should be around 70... Other numbers were high too... At first he told me that doc said he needed to cut back to atleast 1/3 of his drinking otherwise he's not gonna last but 10 yrs... THEN he called me later and said the truth was he's in the beginnings of organ shut down from his drinking and has to take some med for 3 months and go back for a follow up... Ok am I supposed to be shocked cause I am not... I know this probably sounds heartless but I tried for years to get him to cut back or stop drinking but he didn't - he just got nastier and nastier with me to the point he's killed pretty much any feelings I had for him... Sadly I know he's not gonna cut back/stop drinking so his time on earth is gonna be pretty short and for the boys I am sad cause they do love their dad - but in a way I know our lives will be better eventually too...

You know a few months back I could have told you how much I hate him and how insane he makes me, etc... But I recently managed to find a peace in me and now there's only indifference to him... Life goes on... I guess it is true that the opposite of love ISN"T hate but indifference - hate indicates passion/feeling... The only thing of my entire adventure with E that I truely appreciate are the boys... A friend just found out she's pregnant and it was a woops, surprise!! As we were all congratulating her a couple ladies commented about their surprises and how now they couldn't imagine life without their newest addition - how true that is... Ethen was my woops and as I look at him I know he's here for a reason... He adds a sparkle of joy to our lives every day and I could't imagine him NOT being here...

Ok I guess I have rambled on enough for now... I really need to get some rest - the time change has really kicked my butt this week and I am soo tired... Til next time..